Ok so today.....got a free movie pass to see "alex & emma" starring luke wilson and kate hudson.
Very cute....instead of the "love at first sight" premise where the 2 main characters go through hoops to realize that they're meant for each other, the 2 main characters learn about each other over a period of time that makes them realize the beauty of the other. Something they never would have noticed because it wasn't a thunderbolt....it was a slow subtle thing that snuck up on them and they both recognized it for what it was....a love that was based on substantial reality instead of the etherial dream.
it's nice to think that love doesn't always have to be big and ostentacious but quiet and simple. That it's not always about what the person looked like but how because of how they think they've changed your life and you can't live without them.
Wouldn't that be nice in real life? Lord knows my life sucks enough as it is....i'm 28 yrs old and I still live at home with my mother. Granted she's the only family i've got but it still sounds stupid.
I was in a car accident 2 yrs ago that I'm still recovering from.....right now there's an external fixator on my right thigh that has been on for 10 mos. and doesn't look like is coming off any time soon.
I would have had a job if they hadn't laid me off 5 mos. after my accident. My only income source is my disability checks which were a part of my severance package. Well no that's not true....working part time for Blue Man Group i guess can be considered a source of money... although right now it's pretty much only good enough for spending money.
I have no degree and am apparently too lazy to try and finish my degree so there's no help there. Part of me desperately wants to finish my degree just for the sense of accomplishment but another part of me just doesn't want to work so much or that hard for something that I only want because it'll get me what I really want....a chance to become a entertainment magazine editor.
Am I just being delusional? I mean aren't I too old to be trying to break into the publishing business? I don't know but I wonder all the time whether I should just give it up and just get any job for the $$$$
And of course I can't forget my lack of a love life....I'm so socially inept that I've never been in love or had a romantic relationship with a guy ever! Part of me dreams of the perfect guy.... the guy who is perfect for me....the one who loves me despite my flaws and accepts me for who I am.....and another part of me dreams of the soulmate....the man that takes one look at me and knows in his heart that I'm the one he was meant to be with for life.
Then reality knocks on my brain and starts laughing.
Cause goodness know that's just a movie....and really the most I could ask for is a decent man who shares a similar sense of humor as me and enjoys alot of the same things that I do but is able to look at me and see that I'm more than my parts and love me for it. Cause goodness knows I'm in love with many characters from tv and movies:
Mr. Darcy from Pride & Prejudice and Briget Jones' Diary
Hugh Grant's character from About a boy and his character in Briget Jones up until he turned out to be a jerk.
Benjamin Bratt's character from Miss Congeniality
Angel from the Buffy the Vampire Slayer TV series
Or it could be I've just got love on the brain because i saw a romance movie. Goodness knows life is not like the movies.....but how much easier would life be if it was?
And it's not as if we're not all trying to get our life to emulate the movies or TV anyway.....life is so much easier if we could find a way to resolve things with in 1/2 an hour or an hour or could edit out the useless parts of our life that had nothing to do with telling the story.
Something for me to think about......
Forgot to mention that I thought "alex & emma" was worth seeing at bargain matinee price or on dvd.....but not really worth the $10 for the big screen. The big screen is usually good for special effects and majestic scenery anyway.....
